Lately I have been thinking a lot about what it means to change, I think the idea of it is great but to actually do things to create change is harder. I've always been a little resistant to change, purely because even if I don't like the present I understand whats happening and am used to it. However recently I have been thinking about change and taking chances.
(This is a picture a friend sent me when I was feeling down,
not sure where he got it from though but it helped.)
Preparing for it yesterday the thing I found most terrifying was the thought of entering a place where I know nobody and putting myself out there during my audition. One thing that doesn't guarantee you change is not taking chances and sometimes that means putting yourself out of your comfort zone. Which in this case really was outside of what I usually feel comfortable with doing. When I finally arrived I was nearly shaking and got lost looking for the building, luckily with the help of some strangers I was able to find my way there. The process was pretty daunting and after receiving the scripts we were told we could watch others audition whilst we wait for our turn. It was great to see other people giving it a go and I could tell they were as nervous as I was. While there I happened to meet a really nice girl and make a friend whilst waiting which made the process a whole lot easier, to be able to talk with someone and know I am not alone.
I was second last to audition for the role I was going for, the majority of people there were also going for this role. Once they were complete we could find out who was successful. Unfortunately myself nor the nice girl I met while there were successful in getting a role in the play. But this entry isn't about success, it's about taking a chance and seeing what happens when you leave your comfort zone. There are so many things I feel I can't do and maybe its because I don't want to put myself out there but this experience I pushed myself and did it. To be honest I was really happy and proud with myself.
If you've taken the time to read this I hope it's inspired you to take a chance and do something you wouldn't normally just to prove to yourself that you can do it.
Thanks for reading and I'd love to hear any stories of your own experiences on taking chances and how they went so feel free to comment below :)
(I've added a video of Boston by Augustana, this song always inspires me)